reason why i opted order of services

k ive been asked this time n again

let me pen it down here for once n all

in 2006 june 14,my elder brother passed away due to brain haemmorraige,had he been rushed to a hopsital in time(in spite of him insisting he was fine after seizures which were common with him as he was hypertensive) he might have been alive today

I never forgave myself,still dont,for not having done my best to save him

ias was my 1st mainly due to power prestige etc,which it offered,something so shallow it made me ashamed,n i kept it even lower than ifs just in case i were incapicated physically by an accident etc for ips danips etc i wdnt get it on a technicality if i got in merit
hence i went from ias as 1st choice n ips as 2nd to ips as 1st

Ips offered me a chance to do my best,n risk my life if i had to in order to save innoncent civilians whether from criminals,terrorists,drug dealers,insurgents ,communalists,rioters etc.Anytime i failed i knew id more than gladly lose mine to bullets,sharpnels or anything else,that to me was more agreaable than not doing anything or not doing enough and thus end up seeing more blood being shed n families being destroyed,pain which i am well aware of myself

then i put ifs n ias as 2nd n 3rd respectively

(ifs n ias being mere formalities to respect them)


irts as 1st grp A,(the sole reaon being irts not only contributes directly to passenger safety in thousands,it also fuels our economy,safeguards economy by ensuring a continuous supply,earns revenue for country to use in other develoopment schemes,helps people reach their work places in other areas cities etc thus ensuring livelihood of god knows how many,affects development directly by ensuring connectivity n so forth





customs was a failsafe in case others had already opted irts(to one day hopefuly check narcotics n arms again directly related to saving lives)


danips n pondiicherry police were next,only lower than irts,partly them being group b but mainly as other than delhi not many risks/threats,since ips gave me chance to go on 15 year deuptation at least to insurgency areas,something i knew i cld use my skills in or at least die trying if i failed whereas irts still had a chance to contribute larger to safety of others




other services tho great,i placed lower as my main motive was to save n protect,something i couldnt do for my own brother,and a burden on my soul im gonna have to carry with me to my grave

I wanted to join the army in 07 but by then had crossed age limits,hence these 3 were my only roads to salvation

god has given me a chance again to redeem myself,im always going to be grateful for it,i pray i remain strong as ever and use this oppurtunity to find peace again